I am Afraid…

I am Afraid...

but what am i afraid of??

PAST… ? YOU…. ?

PRESENT…? ME…?

FUTURE..? WORLD….??

noo…. Rapes??    Taunts,,??  Complexion..??? Comments..??

I dont really know what am i Afraid of??

 

I stand and I see… DARKNESS !!!!

I… I feel .. HANDS….

CRYING …… Bleeding… hands..!!!

Am scared now.. .. They are pulling me into that…

I am wounded.. m screaming…. m bleeding…

Millions of hands are trying…

They are all INVOLVED !!!

 

I guess… am afraid of the LIGHT…

i am afraid of living in the PAST…. and being ALONE !!..

I am afraid of growing OLD!!

I am afraid of being NO FACE in that CROWD!!

I am afraid of so many things……. And,,

What I see here is.. Everyone..

EVERYONE.. shares the same….

 

They are all afraid of one or the other thing….

I am   not Alone… I am not the ONLY one!!!

ahhhhh.. its such a RELIEF !!!

I TURN TO THOSE HANDS…. and I SMILE.. !!!!

They are all silent…. blank … i hear the PEACE.. the  SILENCE!!

I pushed them back….. n I ran..

I am ahead of all… and

THE DARKNESS …… !!!

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Just the feelings….

I dont wanna clean this tee-shirt..
Which bears your smell..
It helps me picturize your sarcastic..evil..smile..
I just don’t wanna clean up myself..
Itz no more fun now..
I fear it might clean up the Aura too…
AURA of our togetherness..
I don’t wanna see the sun..
As itz too bright outside and..
And..you are not there to hide me in your arms to protect…
I don’t wanna move at all..
I just wanna sit still..coz i fear..
I fear i won’t be able to see things and fall..
And won’t find you behind me..holding..
My teddy is happy again..as you are not there anymore..
So i kiss him..i cuddle him…and
And..try to sleep..
But he doesn’t smile..doesn’t kisses me back..
He is just there..to console me ..
That someday…that moment will come back again..
When i’ll defeat my past.. And..
Will be running ahead of YOU..
Wearing your smell..
Your superman tee-shirt..
And you’ll be coming…all panting..running..behind me..chuckling…
And my teddy..once again..will envy you..
When i’ll kiss you..
In the rain..under the moonlight..cold air..with stars over our head.. 